Tough week. Tough chick. I felt kinda depressed and tired until today but I'm still here and still recovering. Just went for a fantastic walk so I'm pumped up with happy hormones. Still on the Cipramil 20mg/day.
Sleep was a little better last night. Its amazing how that can make a difference. I feel like I have had a very rewarding day both at work and for myself.
I feel good that I got through my work load and helped some other people with some of theirs. Then with my walk... I walked up a mountain. Ok a very long steep hill. The walk was about 50 mins in total. At the top of the hill I was puffing like a $2 *****. At that time a thought came into my head. "I'm breathing too hard....... this is panic". I noted the thought, labelled as catastrophising, and let it go. I didn't buy into it, I didn't try and replace it, I didn't ignore it, I didn't try to distract myself from it and I didn't beat myself up for having it. I just noted that the thought was there and labelled it and let it go. Hooray for me!!! I rock. The view from the top was doubley rewarding and the walk back down was accompanied with a smile.
Its a small step. I might do it again tomorrow. I'm starting to really like exercising and how it makes me feel.
