The hardest part was accepting myself as an addict and realizing that never never in my life can I have another cigarette. I know that I am a puff away from being a smoker again. I hated realizing that I was an addict. I grieved at the thought of never again relaxing with a cigarette. Somehow, I always thought that once I was quit I could reward myself with a cigarette. How convuluted is THAT????
The next hardest part for me was the loss of my mental equilibrium, my sanity and my generally positive life view. I sobbed and slept through the first week. Conflict with my spouse was big. And even after the physical withdrawal was over, then the blahs and blues set in and seemed like they would last forever. Thankfully they did not, but truly this has been the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/15/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 469
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 11,728
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1641.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 65 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17
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Quit Meter
$801,972.50
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6344
Hours: 11
Minutes: 46
Seconds: 26
Life Gained
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45827
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
1,145,675
Cigarettes Not Smoked
