You're right. The last thing you need to do for yourself is to entertain suicidal thoughts because of this. Mike, there is no magic pill that will cure this fear. It takes time and work. We know you're frustrated, but you're working the program, right? Have you been able to improve things even a tiny little bit in order to gain back some control?
We're here for you, and we're not asking for your money and it's Saturday. Perhaps we can help you plan your goals from week to week, to plan small little workable steps in the right direction. What homework have you done so far?
