Hi, DD.
One of the symptoms of nicotine withdrawal is depression and you certainly sound depressed. I know you're on Wellbutrin and I know it is an anti-depressant, but it doesn't always work that way.
As long as you are smoking one here and two there you are just going to draw this agony out. You'll just continue giving your brain enough nicotine to keep you in withdrawal and, therefore, depressed. That, I think, is the root of your problem. Just stop smoking altogther for 4 days until all the nicotine is out of your system, then see how you feel mentally.
Yes, you will always be a nicotine addict. We all will be. But that doesn't mean we will always be miserable. The misery is just very brief compared to the rest of your life. You don't need anything shocking, new, or out of the ordinary. Drugs, NRTs, laser, acupuncture, hypnosis, etc. are all aids. They assist. They will not do it for you. What you need is good, old fashioned committment to quit smoking. Just do it!
Shevie
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[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 317
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,350
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1204.6
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
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