Hi Everyone,
I come forward with a held hung low and shame on my sleeve. But without a cigarette in my hand. I had slipped a few weeks ago and became extremely weak in my thoughts and my quit. I justified every cigarette with a reasoning (that junkie mentality). Today a person I have never considered my friend, took me aside, and said, Jan if you can't think of what you are doing to yourself, think of your son looking at you during your funeral saying Why mommy why didn't you quit. Needless to say, that was a jarring and turning moment in my head. I literally started to weep, thinking of everything I would miss.
I took my sickarettes, gave them to the first person outside smoking said ..enjoy ... or throw them out. Someone said .. JAN you are throwing away 20.00 make them buy. I said no .. $20.00 or my health.. health worth alot more.
I know that I can't do it alone, and cold turkey...so my 'new friend' and I walked over to the pharmacy and bought the patch..I slapped it on ..and I marched back into my office as a quitter.
My 'new friend' told me that anytime I go to go anywheres he will be at my side... questioning me, until he knows that I can walk it alone.
I so appreciate his efforts in this. My son and my husband are at me constantly at home, where I don't smoke much ..so I don't see a problem at home.. plus I never smoked in the house.
So my friends, I hope that I can come back to your community... I will chalk up all my other quits as Practice for the REAL thing this one QUIT which I can't and don't want to lose.
Your smokeless friend Jan :)
-
Quit Meter
$26,512.50
Amount Saved
-
Quit Meter
Days: 721
Hours: 20
Minutes: 38
Seconds: 46
Life Gained
-
Quit Meter
5050
Smoke Free Days
-
Quit Meter
75,750
Cigarettes Not Smoked
