Over the weekend, I let my addictive thinking get the best of me and after 107 smoke-free days, I went back to smoking. I made that choice, however stupid it was, and now I am choosing to return to my quit.
I am not sure how many I smoked over the last 3 days, but I will tell you that I had to force myself to smoke just about everyone of them. It was awful...the smell, the taste, the nausea (that got so bad I nearly vomitted), the unrelenting headache, and yes the guilt.
And just about every minute of the day I said, I want to quit, but it wasn't until today that I am able to say that I want to quit more than I want to smoke. Nicotine started to make me feel bad physically very quickly and that is one thing I refuse to give up is how great I was feeling before I chose to smoke that first one.
So I have reset my meter and I will start at Day 1 tomorrow - cold turkey. I haven't lost those 107 days. That is what allows me to believe that quitting is doable, because I did it. I also know that the SSC is another reason why I had been successful and I will likely be using it more than before. I will do more ranting and raving, especially when the blues hit.
Thanks to everyone for their support.
Penguin
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Quit Meter
$330,525.08
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6029
Hours: 2
Minutes: 1
Seconds: 11
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45433
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
681,495
Cigarettes Not Smoked