My daughter accepted my friend request on Facebook. It was a risk and a friend warned me of the personal life aspect. I want her to see what Im involved with there, its impressive. All self improvement, self help, spiritual stuff, good causes. All real good.
I want to be her Dad again, one of her FB pages is camping. I never took my kids camping. I always had to work. The truth is I never wanted to deal with the hassle and put forth the effort to do it. Maybe its the way I was brought up too. My family didnt have outings. I dont know. Im 47, Im healthy, I DONT smoke. So I hope I get another shot at being a Dad. My kids deserve it. Ya know every day I feel bad, that I broke, I fell apart. And it makes me sad, cause no one knows what its like to go through this, unless its you. Other dont understand, how bad you want to live, participate and have some kind of enjoyment and satisfaction in your life. I really hope I get through this time in my life soon and I hope others find their way as well.
I sent my step daughter a email earlier, I took her on a New Years catering with me for 2000. I raced to get her to her boyfriends by midnight. Back then I WAS ABLE to do ANYTHING. I was amazing! If I do say so myself. I was, and I want me back. In a better way so I dont go through this again.
