The thing is, do you really know when you are at the bottom? It often feels like but isnt there always another bottom, after your bottom? CBT i think its a really great way. It helps you real good. Keep going on CBT. What i wanted to say is, that your thoughts, how much you suffer or not, how deep is your bottom or not, your thoughts are always the same. The power of your thoughts is your valuation. Nothing else.
And i dont want to say that is easy to say that. You have to experience it. Your thoughts are always the same. Your brain makes a picture in your head. And you create something with that. And we know how the people ere in this forum great it, they create it awful Me too for a long time, it really sucks.But believe me, it is such a simple fact, it is thoughts nothing more. Fear is just a habit. You learned something and in xour brain it is connected with fear. But every situation is different, every breath you take is different. And you can break the habit, i does it and everybody else can do this.
It is not only about relaxation. I am often not relaxed but i dont have to fear something. It would be unnatural to be always relaxed, thats not the way life works. Its the way you see it
Hey guys,
nice to hear that other people also started to meditate.
Unfortunately i am from Germany and i read the book in german language. I tried to find the same book in english but i couldnt find it. But however i think there is a lot of literatur you can read about meditation, just be sure it isnt a commercial book. I read several books now and there is a lot of explanation about the buddhism culture and the story of Buddha. its very intresting because when you read about buddha, its like about reading about your life or someone elses life. He was a normal guy, nothing special. And everyone of us is able to find his happines, you just have to understand that.
My biggest mistake when my panic started was to fight against it. its so damn useless.In Meditation is started to understand, that my panix is a normal feeling, nothing special about, nothing to fear about. We have emotions in us, like being happy, being sad, feeling good feeling bad, feeling sexy and not. Its just the way you handle it. The problem with thoughts is, that we are usually value them. And when you have Panic, you value them pretty strong in a unhealthy way.
My first meditations were about looking at my feelings. So i sat down, closed my eyes and played the observer. I looked in my inside, i watched everysing going on in me. BUT and thats the main point, i tried not to value myself and my thoughts.
So i started and there it came. My panic. first impulse was to open my eyes and defend against my panic. But i really let it come, i looked at my panic, and for some reason i really managed it not to value it. And look, there was panic, and then the panic was away, in one second, one freaky second and i got it. Its nothing bad its not special, its just a emotion, a reaction on something, but nothing to scare me. its hard to get in words, i try it but you have to feel this.
So i was going on with reading about meditation and i practiced it at least three times the day for about only 5 minutes. And after two or three weeks it was like someone took of some heavy Chains of my mind. And suddenly there is so much peace and love and happiness in me. its amazing. So it was so important for me to share this with you guys. Because i really really knwo, everyone can heal himself. Its not a sickness you suffer from, its just unknowingness how to see your emotions and how to handle them.
So that was a little bit of experience from me. I hope i can help, and if somebody wants to know more, please ask me. And if i dont know the answer i will inform myself and will help.
Believe in yourselfes, its worth it