I have been taking life a little easier and reminding myself that it's ok..Resting when I need or want to..It a new thing for me but I am learning..there should be no guilt in resting and being a little lazy. It is a challenge but I am getting better at it every day..I have been a little under the weather for about 10 days now..So this time I lounged around and took my meds and let my body rest. I just kept telling myself this is what I need to do now and I did just that..and I started to feel a lot better this morning..
So today I went out and enjoyed a leisurely stroll at a beautiful and very large park about about a 40 minute drive from home. I took it slow and easy and just let myself enjoy it..so turned out to be a very nice day..and on the way home we stopped and did a little shopping..and got myself a new swimsuit. I may not be skinny and young anymore but like my partner said you deserve to enjoy you life just like everyone else does..He was right and I did..Now I have a new swimsuit to wear while I enjoy my walks in the surf on the beach and on the bay this summer..
As for chemo or cancer treatments or surgery and weather we need them or not for ourselves or our pets..I think it is a very personal decision..Ten years ago I took cancer drugs and injections for 6 months to improve and save my life. This I was told later was akin to doing Chemo every day for 6 months straight..Yes I was cured once it was all said and done but I have never really bounced back like I should have and have had lots of health problems ever since.
I though I would be less tired if I did these treatments but that was not the case..These treatments were very hard on my body and mind..I have continued to go to this world famous clinic for all these years..hoping they could make it all better..That is not the case..I had kidney surgery last year because they said I had a 80% chance of having cancer..I never wanted surgery but felt my arm was being twisted into doing it so I did. Now I have two hernias because of this surgery and come to find out I never had cancer..They have been talking about more surgery to correct these hernias and this would be a very painful surgery with no guaranties.
One thing I do know is that I have been letting my self rest and have been trying to stay away from doctors as much as possible and I am feeling better for now and that is all that matters to me, the here and now..Not a bunch of fears of what might happen because of this or that..I have made up my mind to focus on the positive and to not let these money hungry health clinics steer my down the wrong path again. I am not going to let them scare me into things I don't want to do, ever again..
Sometimes it comes down to the quality of ones life and that is where I am at this stage of my life...
I am not going to do something else that I will live to regret when it come to my health again..I want to enjoy my life now I do not want to be so worried about tomorrow that I can not enjoy today ever again..I am going to enjoy my life and being me..and walking down the beach with my new swimsuit on with butterflies, hummingbirds and flowers all over it..This is my idea of living life..Live is good and life is sweet right now today, and thats the way I like it..
Life is short..So enjoy every day to its fullest..
Red...