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How did we get ourselves to the point of making a commitment?
That is a really good question and certainly one I would have asked if I had known about this site when I quit.
My desire quit was like a more like feeling that has been creeping up on me for many, many months.
I had tried to quit before. A few months here and there but my heart wasn't in it.
Looking back I would visualize my desire to quit this time as
the red liquid crystals in a thermometer - rising and rising until the glass tube is mostly red. Each degree of the thermometer was another reason to quit that I truly felt in my heart.
Foremost was my health both medical and dental
The ostracizing social aspects. It became harder and harder to smoke anywhere.
I felt like a second class citizen when in public. I was embarrassed to be smoking in public.
My own desire to avoid social events where I could not smoke.
Just being sooooo stinky allllll the time!
I hated ME for wanting the cigs more than anything else in life.
You know all the reasons.
Finally I saw the thermometer as being more filled up mostly with RED. Fever!
I had more reasons to quit than to not quit. And by this time I truly wanted to quit
more than stay smoking.
That was it. That was when I quit.
If I had put much thought into the actual day to quit, I think I would have been nervous. Instead
one morning I put on a patch and quit. Some say the anticipation of a quit is worse than the actual quit!
If you are looking at a big giant scary thing, it will be hard. If you break it down to small increments -
one minute, one hour, one day it is much easier.
Karren has written a wonderful post that is well worth studying.
We have all been through this exact thing.
I think you said something very important in you post....
you said "know you should quit" but you should know
that you can quit. That is the key!
We are all here anytime for support!!
Read some old posts for insight and good luck!!
HP
My Milage:My Quit Date: 4/1/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 120
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 2,880
Amount Saved: $691.20
Life Gained:Days: 14
Hrs: 16
Mins: 57
Seconds: 23