Hi, I don’t know where to start so I’ll just give you a little history. I’m 33 married with a 3yr old. I was diagnoised clinically depressed in 1996 when I attempted to kill my self. I was put on a regiment of anti depressants and with the help of my parents and friends made it through. I even got to the point where I mett my husband, got married and had a child, I was off all anti depressants and was feeling wounderful. I had a few moments when it would creep back into my life but I wouldn’t let it.
In September I noticed that I was getting very depressed again, I would cry for no reason. I didn’t care how I looked, what I ate, and I definatlly didn’t want to do anything. I had to force my self to go to work to help support my family. I think if it wasn’t for my family I honestly don’t know where I would be.
I went to see the doctor and they put me on Paxil, I took it for a couple months but couldn’t handle the side effects any longer, so I weaned my self off it. I felt better in December, not being on any thing, now in January I’m feeling horrible, sad all time, weepy, mad. I feel like I’m on an emotional roller coaster. My husband thinks I’m loosing my mind. (so do I some days) I don’t want to go back on the anti depressants I hate the feeling of being drugged.
I don’t know why I’m so depressed, I had a very happy childhood, full of love and caring, I have a great job, a wounderful husband and son. I’am very overweight, and have no self confidence. I don’t sleep at night, and when I do its’ full of nightmares, and I wake up, and can’t go back.
I’m just so frustrated. I know I should go see the doctor and get back on some sort of anti depressant….I just don’t know anymore.
I’m so tired of people asking me whats wrong, when I have no idea. I guess I’m hoping that if I can talk about how I feel then that will help. But first I have to figure out how I feel. If that makes sense.
Thanks for listening.
I've been so busy that I totally missed my 18 months free. I can't believe it's been 18 months. wow. Thanks to everyone here, I know I don't come around to much any more, but I still pop in and check on all of you. Your all doing great just keep going.
Hugs
Koala ;)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/16/2004
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 563
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 11,269
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $5067
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 45 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 16
Congrats and welcome to the Hall of fame...wear your t-shirt with pride and keep that key chain close to your heart.
You are a inspiration to many....I always knew you were a star.
congrats
Koala
smokefree in Calgary Alberta, I will be too busy at a wedding this weekend to even think about it.
Have a great weekend everyone.
Hugs
Koala
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/16/2004
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 655
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 13,108
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $5895
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 52 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 46 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59
determination, and a list of why your quitting, keep that list close to you and when that little urge comes a calling look at your list and it helps kill the urge.
Stay strong.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/16/2004
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 655
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 13,109
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $5895
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 52 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 47 [B]Seconds:[/B] 36
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