Day 5--Kicking MY Butt
Hey All,
I need some help and advice.
Day 5 is coming to a close and it's been the toughest one yet. I don't get it. How can day 5 possibly be worse than the first day or even the second? It seems each day should get progressively easier, but my mind and body are really fighting me today.
It started out great. I didn't get a killer crave until about noon which I saw as a really encouraging sign; but when it hit, it hit hard! It wasn't so much a desire for a cig as just a wave of anxiety and tension that is only now starting to let up (7pm PDT).
I'm still so stressed that I feel a little shaky and my teeth and jaw are killing me due to all of the clenching. I'm using the patch which should be giving about the same dose of nicotine I was getting before so I don't get where all of this is coming from.
On the positive side I haven't indulged in a bargaining session, and I am strong in my knowledge that I'm never going back to smoking. I guess if it was easy none of us would be hanging out on this board.
I think a contributing factor is sleep problems I'm experiencing. I'm having a really tough time falling asleep at night and end up lying in bed for hours before it comes. But at the same time once I do fall asleep I'm sleeping more deeply than I can ever remember. In fact all three days this week I've slept right through the alarm and gotten to work late. That means I'm getting home later and later which delays going to bed even more and on and on. I'm thinking about removing the patch before bed, but am worried about the morning crave.
Sorry for the long post, I'm just so glad I have all of you to share with.
Ron
My Milage:My Quit Date: 7/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 4
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 120
Amount Saved: $20.00
Life Gained:Days: 0
Hrs: 17
Mins: 29
Seconds: 56