What is quitting like? ...Really?
this really is a great thread.
For me, this quit has been both easier and more difficult than I expected. Physically it was nothing. I had outpatient surgery on my quit day so I think the pain medication got me through those first few days. Emotionally its been all over the place. Some days (I should really hours because one mood never lasts me an entire day!)its nothing at all and other times I get hit with a real sadness. I can't even tell you how many times I've tried to quit, but this time feels differents. When I feel that sadness, I know that I have to figure out another way to deal with it. That's what this quit is to me...its not giving up cigarettes, its learning to live life the way that I want to and not hiding behind cigarettes. For me, cigarettes were my go to for everything: a pick me up, a reward, a crutch, a distraction, etc. Like I've read on so many posts, cigarettes just aren't an option any more and that was never in my mindset on past quits. I have to tell myself that every day.
The thing I was not expecting with this quit is the nightly dreams about smoking. In every dream, I'm about to smoke a cigarette and I try to tell myself that I shouldn't do it, only to realize I have already had one. I'm always upset and feel like I smoked one without getting to make that decision. Its weird, but I think it may just be me finally figuring out that this is my decision. And I am just figuring this out...I worry every day about going back and it really scares me.
So what is quitting like? really? for me, right now, its learning process.
My Milage:My Quit Date: 6/19/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 29
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 348
Amount Saved: $91.35
Life Gained:Days: 2
Hrs: 9
Mins: 59
Seconds: 38