Yeah, foxman, what Dr Silkworth describes is what I feel like when I get into that cycle. That's what I'm trying to avoid and I think that I'm doing rather well. But the X-Mas parties had me worried about a trigger - like I'd start all over again. I'm usually reasonable but oftenin the past, I just could not stop drinking after the first one.
Tonight, I decided not to go. Yes it's very cold outside - cold spree - and that was a good pretext but I don't think it was a good idea for me to go. For tomorrow's party I'll have my ukulele, so I'm not as worried.
I really wanna avoid the trigger situation because I know that once started, I find a way to continue the next day, starting at noon, and then a glass or two at supper and then a porto (several) after supper and on and on... until remorse gets the better of me. Then I stop for a few days until the next trigger...
Samantha, that's a good idea, the one about having after-party plans. Several yaers ago I remember asking my wife to pick me up at a certain time during my X-Mas party, so I wouldn't drive drunk. Anyhow, this year, I'm gonna play my uke and my pride will keep me in check.
Cheers and thanks for the feedback. Oh, and Happy Holidays.