My wife does not smoke. Her family as well. She is smart insaying it is all about "Will Power". When I started smoking at age13. Al you had to do is scrounge up some change and go to the local conveniencestore and buy a pack of smokes for you Mom!! We were allowed to have a SmokingHole at School Jr. & Sr. High. It was O.K. to be Joe Cool! The MarlboroMan. Kool!!!
I am 42 now. It's not cool anymore. In my industry it is now frowned upon. Even though IT people where codependent drugs to get the job done. A Tank of Coffee and enough cigarettes to stay focused. Impenetrable toTime. It's now about time management and effeciency stay at your desk, monitor, fix, plan, repair. Oh! did I go to the bathroom yet?
I can now feel my body. Hurting for air. Hocking loogies getting your chest cleared out before that first cigarette of the day. I know now I am debotching myself. I baige the Dr. for help. "Try this. Do That." Wellbutrin CR other psychology medications freak me out.
The electronic Cig is a gimick. - So, for cessation habitual oral gratification - - - - None Sense. I had written a paper in High School about Additing Drugs. Nicotine is the most addictive drug """""EVER""""". I want to try Nicitrol Inhaler. But guess what? They are $375.00 in which my Insurance does not recgonize. But a pack of smokes is $5.25 If I get the none premium brand I can get 2 for $6.00 bucks.
So why this long story and my need to start the next chapter in my life. I have been given a career opportunity for my dream job in the healthcare industry. Top Salary, the ability to help my family achieve a better quality of life. But if you get caught smoking on a campus that you do not know is even Posted as "Tobacco Free". Your Fired.
I can control many factors in my life. From the time I can remember it was OK to smoke. On about day three on my cold turkey's my wife say's "Your Being a Dick go smoke a cigarete". Even though she is the sweetest thing in the world the with drawls are horrible. More horrible that weed. Which I never had a problem with but why Nicotine.
I pray and say. "God grant me the strenght. To live and to fight each day. Against my enemies, fear and weakness's". I think that the enemy is myself. I fear that I will die painfully. The weakness are the crutches I use to coep.
I hope I can find it here!!