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You are taking fight or flight to literal. Lets break it down because if you take it literal it is going to exclude a lot of people and since more women than men suffer it is either wrong or there is an explanation. And there is. We all react differently. Under the fight side are such things as tensing up in preparation, anger, yelling, thrashing out, at one self or others. Any thing to release the fight or flight from its obligation so it can shut down. Anger works good but we are taught that it is not appropriate. (by ourselves or others, core belief) Yet it is appropriate to feel emotions and let them go. (as long as they are not consistent and done deliberate) You can break all these words down into related words too.
On the flight side would be freezing if that works for you. A rabbit comes to mind. It relies on being still and its colouring as protection. But pushed hard enough it would run. And for it most of the time it works. If as a child you learned avoidance and hiding work then that is what you will do. Especially if you learn as some do in school that it is better to take a beating than fight.
I think if we put it to the forum you would find that most freeze first and only run as a last recourse and only if they can. This is why those that fear driving fear it so much. Some fear that they will freeze and get in an accident or black out.
Fight or flight is just a name for a survival technique. What ever you do during a panic attack fits it.
~m you are not weird, just a bit unique. I like unique, I am unique too. (an orange)
I never mentioned it but right from the start I thought your candle represented hope. A little bit of light in a sea of darkness. A little hope to fight the despair with. Hang in there, your candle will burn brighter and remove all this darkness. It just takes time.
Here for you,