Hi everyone! My name is Amy and I am a 22 year odl mother of two beautiful little girls. Briana just turned 4 and Kaitlyn recently turned 2.
For as long as I can remember, even as a little child, I have been afraid of death. Then when I turned 16, I decided to smoke pot one night. I don't know what happened, but my entire body went numb and I thought I was going to die. Ever since that night I have suffered from anxiety attacks. I learned after many visits to the ER that I could ignore the physical symptoms and keep myself from getting full blown attacks. This worked for years.
Within the past year my anxiety has increased, and I can no longer keep myself from getting an attack. I went to a Phychiatrist and was prescribed Zoloft, but because of some true horror stories I had read online regarding Zoloft, I never took it. About 2 months ago I ened up in the ER again, when my legs went numb and I couldn't convince myself it was just another anxiety attack. The Dr. there gave me something to calm me down and told me to go to a therapist.
I finally am in therapy, and awaiting an appointment with the Phychiatrist to get placed on meds (I've been researching them all, and am still unsure about taking them). I'm just so tired of always being afraid, and it's gotten so bad I REFUSE to stay at home alone at night. I don't like going out with my friends to clubs, because I hate being in crowds. I'm constantly worried that I am going to get an anxiety attack, and that keeps me from doing a lot of the things I used to enjoy and things that I would like to accomplish, like finishing college and keeping a job.
Well, I guess that's my story. I started The Panic Program today and I am hoping it will help me deal with the anxiety that has taken control of my life. If anyone wants to talk, I'll be around! :)
