Congrats hors controle on one month! I've never been to an AA meeting but I would think the one month token could serve as a great reminder of your journey. Good luck with this next month. Stay strong!
Thank you High Tower and I am proud of myself. Tomorrow I will go to an AA meeting to get my one month token. Seems a little silly but for me it is like those littles stars teachers used to put in our notebook when I was young.
Lynn you are very right about the urges not going away completely but that we get stronger resisting them as time passes by.
Your First Month !!!! Really Awesome Hors. Very very proud of you and you should be proud of yourself. I know it took a lot work but you did it. 1 month is my first goal and I will assess what I want to do at that point. I have like 15 more days to go which means I am half way there and that feels pretty decent to me.
Thanx Lynn, we all that AV is a tricky little guy/gal but we can be smarter and stronger that it is.
The more time that passes being alcohol free can make things easier but that doesn't mean the urges go away. The difference is the confidence that you gain with each day, each situation, that you triumph over that alcohol voice. Using the confidence helps those urges not seem as bad. For me those urges are still around 4+ years later but they are fleeting urges at this point. I know I can't succumb so I don't entertain them for long. The alcohol voice isn't as loud when it knows the audience isn't really paying attention.
It does get easier but be prepared that you might still have cravings. I finished my first month 2 days ago. Today was more difficult. I had cravings for wine but I just remembered myself it will pass and it did eventually. I think the weather is not helping, cloudy and cold.
Today was not a good day. I ran into several financial road blocks that will make things a bit more difficult in the future. Nothing devastating but a definite setback none the less.
The AV was strong today, just a couple drinks of your old friend vodka will make you feel better and you will care less. Win Win in the old days. The good news is that I held off,
I decided to read old posts on this forum. I went back to 2015. A couple hours of distraction and inspiration. I need to fill out several forms to try and rectify this situation but I didn't want to deal with all that paper work this afternoon. I decided to procrastinate and not focus on this until tomorrow. One day isn't going to affect things much at this point.
I think I am over the urge now and ignored the AV until he shut up. I am committed to being alcohol free for 30 days and this was my biggest test so far, I think today is my 2 week mark so I am half way to my goal.
The longer you can stay alcohol free the less you need to defend it. It does get easier a little bit every day. It sure was that way when I quit smoking. That for me was much harder than this was. I was sick for 2 months, it seems my body wanted me to know I needed that nicotine. I would have such vivid dreams of smoking that I would wake up thinking I had become a smoker again. It would take like 30 minutes to sort myself out. That lasted at least 2 years. The frequency would drop though as time went on. The last several dreams were months apart. The dreams were so vivid though I remember them all too well. This alcohol thing is way easier for me than the smoking was so I should be able to handle it without too much trauma I hope. I still need to keep focus on why I am doing this. I still think about drinking way too much and the urge is always nagging at me to come back for just one drink........
Do you find that you are able to find more positives the longer you went without alcohol? I know it was easier for me. If I were to create a list of positives it would be long for being alcohol free. The list of positives for drinking would be empty.
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