Hi ND,
How sad that so very many of us have been damaged, abused almost destroyed at the hands of those that should have been our protectors. How despicable that the ones who should have loved us more than their own lives (as I love my own children) could premeditate horrors upon us more fitting of that of a B movie.
However, these individuals do not own our souls. While they tried their best to demoralize and negate our existence, they cannot break us unless we allow them to. Self hate is a product of “their” abuse. We need to love ourselves. We cannot heal until we do.
Rewriting your perceptions enables you to put these life events into perspective. Recognizing that they not you, should be enveloped in self hate for their atrocities.
ND, please understand that your wounds can heal but only if you let them. Allowing them to fester is allowing your tormentors to be triumphant.
Don’t give them that power.
TS
Hi ND,
Your self analysis is very interesting. Almost like you feel that you don’t deserve to be happy. Becoming introspective and trying to understand your own motives will help you deal with future slips.
“Deep down I feel like I'm nothing and bad and then when things are going well I have to self destruct.”
Perhaps you can dissect your past and pinpoint the time when you began to feel this way. Understanding why you are sabotaging yourself will help you heal simply by rewriting your perceptions.
TS