Thanks everyone.
Ashley -
There are too many ways that stopping this cycle would be beneficial. Some of the main ones are, I want to stop this cycle for my girls. Both my husband and I come from alcoholic families and to this day - the main event at most / all gathering is drinking. I do NOT want my girls to fall into this cycle or to remember their Dad and I drinking a lot. I want to have lots and lots of memories that do NOT include drinking. I want to feel better and stop the self loathing I feel on the mornings after. I'm a active 35 year old and like to exercise and alcohol hinders that a lot. I want to learn how to have fun at events without alcohol.
I'm very blessed in my life and I want to know that and enjoy that without the effects of too much alcohol.
That being said - we ALL face uphill battles, and I feel like my "hill" is a big one. My husband admits he drinks too much. My Dad is a admitted alcoholic and stopped drinking 2 years ago. My Mom and Step-Dad drink all the time and when we are with them, they drink to drunkness everytime, and encourage us to do that same. The majority of our friends drink a lot too (time to change who I spend time with) It's all around me, all the time.
Thanks for listening.