Thanks so much for the replies. I feel like I'm alone in this sometimes, and it's nice to get a reminder that I'm not alone.
@Cryptkeeper; It's great that you found the right treatment for your problems. I know It's not easy. I went through a lot of different meds over the last 7 years and never found the right fit for me. As for my desire to quit drinking that is a great question. At times my desire to quit is very strong, I've been to a 28 and a 21 day treatment centre in the last few years. Also many 12 step and AA meetings. I was in a support group for concurrent dissorders for about a year. When I'm sober my anxiety spikes and I notice pain more, and that usually sucks the desire to quit drinking right out of me.
@foxman; That is so true about exersize. I had a severe depression about 10 years ago and the only treatment I got was to force myself to get to the gym 4 or 5 times a week. After a few months I felt the best ever. Now I struggle just to get through 8 hours a day at work. I have a lot of exersize at work and come home dragging too tired to take the dog for a walk.
@Vincenza; Thankyou for the welcome. You are absoutely right, it is hard to say what the root of any of this is. I'm always trying to educate myself on what has been positive and negative on my health. I tried lots of different things. ie. chiropractic, accupuncture, naturalpathic doctor, massage, yoga, EFT, hypnotherapy, ect. I can say for sure that each of them had a positive effect for a short time, but then it seems to get lost. I think I improve to a point then reach a plateau where I get stuck. Then I just lose confidence and hope and give up. Could be a lack of motivation. Or too much stress. That is when the drinking starts again, and of course drinking makes things worse.
Sorry for such a long post, guess I needed to get these thoughts out. thanks again....rcguy