Thanks to all for the comments. Was a disaster three nights ago. Better the next night, and last night dined out with an open bar and did have some, but kept fruit juice and diet pop at the table so didn't do too badly, certainly not tipsy. Really need to stop again though. Vacation almost over. Will really try to abstain for the remaining few days. Don't want to bring this home. I actually really hate feeling out of control when drinking and even more hate the next day hangover. I think I need to focus on how much I hate those feelings to stop again. I also need to check in here at least once a day to keep the right thoughts top of mind. On the plus side, I don't feel depressed, just a little sad at times over various things. Depression and self-medication with alcohol, as unhelpful as that is, was always a major problem. Today is a new day. I am determined to be able to record zeros on the tracker for today. Absolutely no reason not to be able to. Now that I have put the pressure on myself for today, I also need to think about that I don't want to have to feel embarrassed and ashamed tomorrow if I can't.
