Hey Wildcat!
Thanks for the support and for, I don't know, being honest and saying what you think and helping me figure things out! I so need that kind of support right now!
I guess I do need rest right now. I am so exhausted.
I did a little experiment. In the last two days I have given myself the right to do only what felt right and sleep anytime I felt like it. Needless to say I slept over 12 hours each day. I spent time with my wonderful mom. I went out with my husband on a day where I played hookie from work! How decadent! The thing is, today was a better day then I have had in a long time! I am still exhausted and I sleep too much, but while I was awake I did not feel so horrible when I could just gie myself a break. I went walking and shopping, and I even planned a brunch with my nieces tomorrow and some art project!
I guess I am just hard on myself and feel like I should be able to recuperate while working etc...
But you are right, without my health there is no me. I don't feel like the best version of myself lately. Having time to find that person and get stronger would be quite nice!
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Hiya Ashley,
Thank you for the reply and the support! I love this site. You are right, I do need to take care of myself. My therapist keeps reminding me that not taking care of myself is what got me here in the first place. I must be stubborn. It seems I need things repeated at me a lot before I get it! And yes, I like the way you put it: I wil still be working, working on me!
Time to focus and get healthy does sound great right about now. Especially since i have such exciting plans for september! I really would love to be healthy and up to that!
And yeah, I think I will take the time off and work on me and on getting strong! I want to feel like me again. And yeah, guilt is just useless in most cases isn't it?
Thanks for being here. It feels nice to have so much support!