My whole day began with the thought, "So,,, you're still at it, eh?"
This is when it gets hard. I have'nt been in here much today as I was in a constant argument with my addict. I call it "The Fool".
I'm a lousy passenger in a car because I don't have any control. Its that way for my quit as well.
I won. I still have all 12 of my days, but I am exhausted! Its not the first 3 days or 7 days. Its about the end of Heck week or the beginning of Blah week. I know. Hense the name, right? I wish I could find a way to keep it fresh. I do realize how unrealistic that is.
This, to me, is when we are really put to the test. We have to decide is it really worth it? Is this really what I want?
I scream to the top of my voice (without having to cough, heh heh) "Of course it is!!!" Of course, all this talking and screaming about is going on in my head. We may have to make this decision and stick to it many times in a day.
But, the point is that WE DO! Its not going to stay exciting and fulfilling like it can be in our first few days as ex-smokers. I expect I'll have more days like this one. But you know what? Knowing I did NOT give up my quit is just as fulfilling as my decision to quit.
In fact, this is the best I've ever felt, mentally, with my quit.
Please hang in there everyone! We can get through this! :)Pat.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/22/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 12
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 487
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $68.4
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 32
I am very late responding. I am sorry. I just wanted to thank you all for your responses and support. I did get through this day of misery and now I'm wrapping up 2 WEEKS!
When I was talking about the control issues, I worded that wrong. What I meant was that I didn't want to give up the controls to my addict. Thats what the fight was about between me and it. I kept the controls. Lady, you are very right. For the first time I am in the driver's seat with this thing and yes, it feels GREAT!
In honor of getting through this first 2 weeks, I am now the proud owner of my first freshwater fish aquarium. It is so relaxing to watch them. New hobbies, a few different routines, and living my life without the smokes.
Thank you all so much! Stay strong! :)Pat.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/22/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 13
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 558
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $74.1
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 35 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56
Sweeet!! You made it throught the first day and that is awesome! Stay close and stay strong! :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/22/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 14
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 593
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $79.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 33
You're right about that, xray. Its one of the hardest things we will ever do, I think. DAY 5!!! You're doing great! Congratulations! Hell week is nearly over! Stay strong! :)Pat.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/22/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 14
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 593
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $79.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 58
Hi, Marg! Congratulations on DAY 5!!!! That is HUGE! Stay strong! We can get through this! :)Pat.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/22/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 14
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 593
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $79.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 43
I made 2 WEEKS!!!! Just wanted to jump in here for a sec to thank everyone for their help! Stay strong! :)Pat.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/22/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 14
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 597
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $79.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 48 [B]Seconds:[/B] 2
Thanks for this post, Rusty. You and the others have been such an inspiration to me and such great cheer leaders, I don't know if I would still be holding my quit for dear life right now. This really hits home.
:)Pat.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/22/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 14
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 597
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $79.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 48 [B]Seconds:[/B] 57
UH OH...Live? Chiefs fan? Well, I also will be watching that game tomorrow...wearing my blue and white! I just got my whole family new Colts t-shirts for the occasion! So, come on! I'll bring it smoke free and so can you! I know its hard to watch. I get nervous for ol' Peyton.
But, I want to watch these guys for alot of years to come. We can do it!
Stay stong! (And may the best team win!!) ;)Pat.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/22/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 15
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 600
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $85.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26
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