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Violent Outbusts of Self-Hate

Hello. I have been cutting down my smoking over the last few weeks. I got down to half a cigarette a day, and started having these attacks. I would feel this viscousness come over me and start hitting myself, throwing myself into the walls, growling and hissing. They would last from 30 seconds to 10 minutes. It scared me so bad I started smoking more often. They seem to have decreased a bit. I've also experienced invisible attacks like a ghost hitting me in the face. I've been waiting for weeks for a medical psych appointment, but they are booked in my area. I am not sure if this is related to smoking or just the latest excuse I'm using not to quit. It's said it hates me and wants to kill me, but I think it's me. I've had anger, guilt, and jealousy boiling up to the surface, but this hate/sabatoge actually takes over. Perhaps it is my own energy returning? I am curious to see if anyone else has experienced this kind of thing. I've also had PMS the last week and recently quit using chemical drugs. Thank you for listening.
8 years ago 0 4 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Violent Outbusts of Self-Hate

I wanted to add that other times when I quit using recreational drugs, I did not experience this. I had planned to quit today, but have had 4 drags so far.
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Violent Outbusts of Self-Hate

I wanted to add that other times when I quit using recreational drugs, I did not experience this. I had planned to quit today, but have had 4 drags so far.
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Violent Outbusts of Self-Hate

I am experiencing voices, but they did not give me any medication for that. I am taking Wellbutrin now which is helping a lot, but have not entirely quit. I am down to 2 to 5 drags a day.