The main reason I drank was to feel happy (well, that and numb from pain). I was diagnosed with depression and when I drank I didn't feel it. I am not saying you are depressed, but that might be part of your angst. I now deal with my depression through exercise, therapy and some monitored Rx. This is NOT for everyone, but I think that it's worth it for you to talk to your health care professional about how you are feeling. If you do choose to take meds (IF it is recommended by said professional) then make sure you research the meds to find side effects and possible addictive properties. After all.... in the meantime, keep reminding yourself that you have accomplished an amazing feat (probably you once thought impossible) and you have the strength and support to continue it.
