Splitimage, I love the peaceful, healing image of you knitting, perhaps with your harp nearby. Congratulations. Yes, you are making progress and one indication is the feeling that the emotional upheaval is good. Another one is that you're starting to like yourself. I'm so glad. From what you've shared here, I sum you up as creative and unique, determined to conquer, and yes, tired and frustrated too, but a continual source of inspiration. I'm sending you good vibes for the job hunt.