Enlightening: giving you more information and understanding of something
An interesting word choice that I didn't expect would come up in this topic : )
Enlightening is an accurate description of what I have been expereincing this week.
I'm begininning to notice the patterns and triggers of my drinking.
My pattern of having a rough day happens happens in threes.
My favorite day to drink was Sunday, another challenging day for me.
Interesting correlations!
I'm learning to diffuse the energy that is associcated with these situation by breathing and distracting my mind.
My body feels very tense when I am going through a tough patch.
I've been breathing deeply and exhaling slowly to relieve the stress that I experience.
This helps if I can be concious enough to remember to do this
Saturday my wife and I went shopping together.
First to the grocery store and then to the hardware store.
The grocery store is filled with so many triggers for alcohol.
I understand why addicts have such a tough time not giving into the tempations.
After the grocey store we went to the hardware store to buy a shelving unit for our house.
As I walked through the hardware store I could feel the tension rising in my mind and body.
By the time we left I was very vunerable to giving in.
I think that if my wife hadn't have been with me I would have cracked.
By the time we got home I was in a bad mood.
Luckily I had the shelving unit to put together.
After two hours of fiddling the shelving unit was put together.
And the urge to drink was gone.
Well I'm three weeks into this new chapter of my life.
One more week and I'll reach my next goal of one month.
I'm looking forward to rewarding myself with that new bike!
Oh one more thing I put my list in a memo on my cell phone to help me in the future!
