Athena, I think AA is a great idea. It will provide the support and structure you need until February 29. If you live in an area where there are lots of options for meetings, try out a few if you don't find a good fit right away. I also want to comment on the fact that you have young children. I know there are several others out there in the same situation. When my kids were little, I loved them dearly, but that's when my drinking picked up--especially in the evening. By then, well, I really needed a break. Being a mom of little kids is stressful, especially when you're new to it. Plus, as lovely as they are, kids just aren't at our developmental level and hours of playing kids games, fixing kids meals, arranging schedules, dealing with tantrums, etc., can get a bit mind-numbing if it isn't your calling. We all need adult stimulation. So be sure to arrange some relief and take some time just for you.