OK, here goes... I'm sitting at my desk feeling quite hungover and ashamed of myself. I had 7 glasses of wine and a beer yesterday when I had vowed to cut back on Saturday after a particularly bad fight with my husband on Friday night. He told me he was concerned about my drinking. It was a real eye opener.
I think of myself as a celebratory drinker -- and I can find just about anything to celebrate (sunny day, rainy day, good day at work, having fun with friends, etc.). At the same time, I've been under a lot of stress recently and find that I want to drink to make myself feel better. I don't seem to be able to stop at one or two lately and I can't figure out why I want to drink so much. I start thinking about the next glass of wine before I'm even finished the one I'm drinking!
My friends and family tend to consume a lot of wine and I convince myself that I have more control than they do. This may be true but it doesn't mean I'm not drinking way too much.
I'm headed to Ireland next week for a two week vacation and I've told myself I will cut back once I'm home again. I'm afraid that I won't have fun if I don't drink while I'm there, even though I know that's crazy.
I could go on and on, but this is probably enough to start with. I'd really appreciate some feedback to know that I'm not alone.