Hey guys,
Sorry for disappearing again...
First I had PC troubles and felt too tired to go to library for theirs... Then I got sick. Got a flu, then I got a stomach flu which landed me a few days in the hospital...Fun stuff. Then I felt oddly better and I didn't want to jinx it by thinking about my depression lol Real logical right? I should know better :P
Anyway, all this to say, I am back and I will try to make it a for good situation despite my fatigue and lack of energy for much. I know this places does me good.
Josie,
Thanks for the thoughtful reply. I will try to restart the program for myself. I know I need it. As for making a list, I made one. Now if I could just get started I would be golden... :P As for not napping I tried it and I get all irrational and weepy and cranky. I start crying for no reason and feeling dizzy and panicky when I am too tired. So now I just sleep whenever I feel like it and am trying to stop feeling guilty for it. It makes me a lot less productive but overall I feel more balanced inside when I am rested. My therapist, husband and mom all three tell me to give myself a break and just sleep. So I have been trying that and must admit I am pretty burnt out and sleep seem to balance me out. But once I am a bit more on my feet, the advice here sounds great and I won't forget it :P
Hey Wildcat,
I am adjusting to my new dose for the meds and I think they are doing me good. It is still up and down for me. I feel all over the place lately, up and down, but I have more ups which is nice. And thankfully, up to now, no adverse reactions to my new meds :)
I am taking my anti-depressant at night now, thanks for the tip! It helps!
As for sleep being an escape, not sure. I do like to sleep as it makes me feel better. But I would say my main modes of escapes are movies and books (to which I am addicted!). But it is a good question to which I will try and find a definite answer. Thanks!
Thanks for your thoughts and I am sorry if I worried you. I will work the program and get out of my funk :P
Hey CM!
So glad to hear from you! How are you?!
Thanks so much for the comforting and thoughtful and sweet reply. It made me feel very supported :) As for the meds, I really think they are helping actualy which is a first for me with anti-depressants lol. So that is good I guess :) But I do talk to my pharmacist and doctor and therapist often. No worries there :) Thanks again for the reply and I hope to hear more from you!
Yesterday, I had a dream where my cat was dying again and I had to choose what to do all over again. I woke up crying and horribly sad and felt depressed most of the day.
Today, well, I just woke up but I feel a bit better. I have to go though as my brother needs me and I want to eat before I cal him. But I will try to drop in regurlarly now ad gt back on the program :)
Thanks for the suport, it helps me feel less lonely.