Is it normal to ask yourself, am I worth it ? or am I doing fine ? Because sometimes it is okay to be silent than to be heard. We may be sad, mad and lonely but there will always a time in our life that we are going to ask ourselves about our worth. To some people, they may think that we are just creating a nuisance or we are just "OA", overreacting to things, but on the other side, we are actually drowning and we need someone to help us, to guide us. Maybe it is a cliché but is there anyone else out there that is also suffering from this kind of thinking ?

Working now a days is very important and at the same time it is tricky; because of today's situation, but getting back to work from a traumatic experience from my previous job is what terrifies me the most. The questions are; what if I am not doing the right thing, what if I am not suited in this field anymore etc... This is some of the thoughts that I always run into.

Actually, criticism is a big word to begin with, because sometimes us without even knowing, the people who criticized or judged you is the person you share your life with. You will feel at some point that you are suffocated and you want to end it, just walk away and leave it all behind, but you can't because you have a lot of things going on, like family to support with, debts, bills and many more. And today what pushes me to be better is; I want myself to boost me, to love me, to care about me and to rejoice all the good things that may happen in this new chapter of my life.

Some may think is it a simple problem that a kindergarten can easily solve, but if you felt insecure within you, it is actually very hard to overcome because a lot of things are damaged, and you don't have the answers or solutions to fixed it.

But hopefully with my new job, I will start to love myself confidently for what I really was and be more patient in God's perfect time, because I guess we may feel down sometimes, optimistic on the other day, but it is all NATURAL because we have feelings and we are HUMANS.

Thanks for letting me know about this, I will check all the sessions and will be more light on myself.

Yeah you're right, maybe because I cared a lot about what people may think about me and I started acting like not myself in front of them. But one thing for sure I will compose myself from now on and focused on my goal.

And to be honest, because of this discussion I don't know how to answer this questions.

• What if you are not doing the right thing?
• How will you handle it?
• Is there evidence you are not doing the right thing?
• Is there evidence you are doing the right thing?
• If you aren't doing the right thing would it be a hassle or a horror?
• How would you cope?

There is no exact explanation on my end on how I may work with this, but I will try to believe in me first.

Thanks a lot Ashley ♥

Hi Ashley,

It took me weeks to answer this questions.

Maybe you are right, there is no perfect answer for this questions, but to give some of my insights, I will try to answer this.

1. Maybe in this kind of situation, I will question myself and if this question hits me so bad I will start thinking and thinking and eventually it will become reality to me. What if I'm not doing the right thing, it is more likely asking my worth that I'm afraid to answer.
2. To be honest, I always failed to handle this kind of moments in my life, other's may seem me okay but I always dig deeper that they can ever imagine.
3. There is no evidence only the thoughts, words of the people around me.
4. Yeah, my boss always compliment me that I'm good on what I'm doing, but I guess my mortal enemy is myself. Because there is a time that my fighting spirit is not there.
5. Maybe it will be a hassle.
6. I don't know still

But now, as I continue this journey I realized how lucky I am, and there is so many things I can do and I can provide without the judgement of others and myself.

Hi Ashley,

Yeah I did, it helps me a lot. But as of today, I am feeling down again and worthless not because of my work but today due to my sibling. It is really hard to explain but life is complicated :(

grapeseed @ Jan 8, 2022, 5:50:37 AM

Hi Anna

I hope you are feeling better. It's ok to have down days. I have been feeling awful for Weeks but I'm starting to feel more positive today. You can get through it. I know the holidays cab be tough for a lot of people.

Grape

Thank you so much Grapeseed! I'm feeling better now but it is just tough days has it's own place in our lives.

grapeseed @ Feb 7, 2022, 1:43:12 AM

I'm glad you are feeling better anna

I am finding exercise really helps with my mood. I'm a bit nervous because I will be quitting smoking Tuesday and my mood always takes a nose dive when I try to quit. What helped you manage your mood when you were going through stressful life events?

What I usually do? Not sure if this will keen to something lol, but what helps me is doing nothing hehehe, I find it more relaxing just laying down, drink coffee and reading wattpad and books.

Also you can do it!, We're beyond on what we can imagine so, just remember this "if you light up a cigarette, you are saying that your life isn't worth living" I read it somewhere HAHAHAHA

grapeseed @ Feb 7, 2022, 1:43:12 AM

I'm glad you are feeling better anna

I am finding exercise really helps with my mood. I'm a bit nervous because I will be quitting smoking Tuesday and my mood always takes a nose dive when I try to quit. What helped you manage your mood when you were going through stressful life events?

What I usually do? Not sure if this will keen to something lol, but what helps me is doing nothing hehehe, I find it more relaxing just laying down, drink coffee and reading wattpad and books.

Also you can do it!, We're beyond on what we can imagine so, just remember this "if you light up a cigarette, you are saying that your life isn't worth living" I read it somewhere HAHAHAHA